Ode to Sleep

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From where I sit: I’ve slept ~6 hours in the last two nights, each. This.is.no.bueno.for.me. Zombie-esque. 7.5 hours is my minimum. I hate everything otherwise! I don’t verbalize it as such, but I think it. I think it so hard. I am concrete being drug through mud. Over the years, under the guise of this fog, I’ve made objective observations. The experience has repeated itself enough, I can somewhat rise above it. There’s always the general anger over the circumstance; the physical ache within my self, my body; the negative thoughts…The real fist punches are the negative thoughts. Now an observer of them, I can classify them as ‘other’, as apart from me and very circumstantial. I’ve learned to overcome … Read More

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Discipline

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I’ve started singing again. I want to make note of this. It’s been awhile. There has been a terribly long dry spell. I would like to blame it on my podcasts listening verses music listening. I’ve entirely changed my environment. My current environment doesn’t seem to breed it.  A lot has changed in the past year. I neither hear myself in sounds of soliloquy casually around my home, nor in the shower, nor freely belting in the car; and I have definitely not creatively puzzled together lyrics for a new song. I’ve wondered if the whole singing thing blew in like a breeze and left as quickly as shutting the window pane. {typing this line kinda breaks my heart, so … Read More

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On the Docket

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Not even halfway through January, thought i’d sound-in on the personal updates before I loose myself down other rabbit hole blogging topics. What I’m Reading Most of my reading comes by referral. I commented on social media recently how my reads would be on the lighter side this year. This in no way implies just fiction or casual investment of time. I just mean I’m not spending a significant amount of time on one history or biography of 300+ pages, taking up nearly 2 months! In this stack there is culture, history, practical applicable information, spiritualism ‘without the woo-woo’ –Tim Ferris, AND a Murakami. ‘I can’t believe I havent read this one!’ Murakami. Coming from a librarian nerd, don’t you … Read More

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Self Awareness

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Revised: Title Changed & an article added at the end. There is the colloquialism, perception: Everyone you meet is fighting their own battle. No truer truth exist. Clichés exist because they are true. How deep or superficial your battle is, (this is subjective) the end of the year holds its own cloud (negatively) or billows up a parachute you collect the year under (positively) for consideration. Ends are conclusions. Periods seem final. Another year wrapping up is another year getting older, literally. Regardless, it is a linear concept. What is a resolution? Why does it have a collective behavior or belief around it? Bullshit My new behavior is questioning everything. General human behavior and Personal behavior. Why am I thinking … Read More

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