Mirror, Mirror

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She sits Indian style on the floor in front of a full-length mirror. Before Youtube and Youtube tutorials, this is how she first learned to do her makeup. A friend trained her in eyeliner, mascara, and lip liner with the mother’s Chanel products. A certain standard was being set. For many years afterward, she would sit on the floor doing her makeup.   We learn things on the floor and stand up to do them as adults.   She is grown up and sits at a vanity with a smaller mirror bordered by strobe lights directly in front of her. All the years of laugh lines, smile lines, and worry lines are illuminated. What does she cover up? What does she admire about herself?   There are many … Read More

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Choices

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I’m behind on writing but certainly not inspiration. Is it procrastination or lack of motivation? What is propelling me now… As I hover over my life, what actions do I see myself taking? It is good to know what one is motivated by: money; attention; notoriety. It is good to know why one procrastinates: laziness; absolute perfection; fear of incompetence. In our current environs, enjoyment of life doesn’t necessarily demand vocal declaration and shared memorializing. Every meal, every outfit, every landscape. Satisfaction is its own reward. In some ways I’m seeking a comfortable stride, in other ways I’m finding new footing. I reflect on my creative endeavors and the next ones I want to pursue. I’m excited and monotone simultaneously. … Read More

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The Random Show.

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A number of the more popular podcast interviewers I listen to do a little answer session of submitted questions occasionally. A few others just read and answer daily mail during the week. I’ve decided to just throw things out there for this one. Much stirring currently. I sang all day today. Hallelujah to that! I visited with a friend I haven’t seen in 3 months. He’s been in Los Angeles gutting-restoring-furnishing a place he bought. His Dallas home is behind a church, and after years of negotiation, the church bought the block, so they could expand. We’ve known each other 10 years and this feels like one of those life shifts But oh how life is very cyclical, how small the … Read More

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Discipline

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I’ve started singing again. I want to make note of this. It’s been awhile. There has been a terribly long dry spell. I would like to blame it on my podcasts listening verses music listening. I’ve entirely changed my environment. My current environment doesn’t seem to breed it.  A lot has changed in the past year. I neither hear myself in sounds of soliloquy casually around my home, nor in the shower, nor freely belting in the car; and I have definitely not creatively puzzled together lyrics for a new song. I’ve wondered if the whole singing thing blew in like a breeze and left as quickly as shutting the window pane. {typing this line kinda breaks my heart, so … Read More

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Stall for Success

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If you’ve read my words long enough, you know how much I love spontaneity. These decisions tend to be the ones which really create our life. But we live in a world of abundance and options, so our instincts become derailed by distractions. I have stood firm on what I want, and I have also needed daily reminders from the inner voice to be patient. I do not need to be spontaneous. I have time. If I haven’t felt an immediate YES and GO, I just dilly dallied and never shot the bullet or filled in the paper work; or procrastinated the decision long enough till it rescinded itself or was taken away as an option. The common colloquialism is … Read More

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