I’ve been on a quiet bender. A writing radio silence. Most writers know they just need a deadline. I thought I needed a muse; the muse as some form of motivation. But like a fitness coach, it’s not their counting and cheering while you do the reps, it’s mostly someone holding you accountable. In my case, it is only me. I decide what my priorities are. When our priorities aren’t right, it’s because excuses are too easy. I remember a line I heard many years ago. It came from an episode of the Dr. Phil Show playing in the background. He said one thing I’ll never forget. He was speaking to a woman about her weight issues, and said, ‘You … Read More
Half & Half
It’s certainly been a minute since I’ve written here. While I could whittle off a list of excuses, the main theme of my past month was rebellion. For instance, after almost solely planning a party for my company, I decided at the last minute to not attend. And it felt so free walking right past it and out the door. I genuinely didn’t give a damn; which is where I’m at mentally with my job actually. I’ve been stirring up my own bowl of interests to see what rises to the surface, top priority, next job posting or creative pursuit; both pursued simultaneously most likely. I think I finally folded up the ambition to pursue new music making. My heart … Read More
There Are No Rules
So much world, so little time. So much adulting, so little playing. It sounds cliché to say there are big changes coming. On a global level, in how we see this world and how we live in it, it seems as though it’s changing more quickly than can be digested. I am certain our personal lives are taking a bit of a shaking up, too. All for the better. There is no turning back. It is a fact, success is predicated on the pursuit; the damned determination. This doggedness sees an objective through despite external circumstances. Staying the course in a linear fashion has never been my strongest suit. Where some see my behavior as a fluttering about, I recognize … Read More
Self Awareness
Revised: Title Changed & an article added at the end. There is the colloquialism, perception: Everyone you meet is fighting their own battle. No truer truth exist. Clichés exist because they are true. How deep or superficial your battle is, (this is subjective) the end of the year holds its own cloud (negatively) or billows up a parachute you collect the year under (positively) for consideration. Ends are conclusions. Periods seem final. Another year wrapping up is another year getting older, literally. Regardless, it is a linear concept. What is a resolution? Why does it have a collective behavior or belief around it? Bullshit My new behavior is questioning everything. General human behavior and Personal behavior. Why am I thinking … Read More
Time Is on Your Side
We made it. Passed the holidays, all our pieces are still in tact. The new year, the perception of a fresh start, as it actually just slides into another… Time is speeding up. Have you noticed? No, it really is. But here’s the best part, the time between what you want and when you will get it is also shorter now, so there’s that. You must act on it, no waiting around. And I have been spending time and waiting. Since Sunday, I believe my body has been physically glued to my bed with illness: no reading, no Netflix, no nothin! There have been moments of mental conception and new creation inside of this fatigue, and my own path has … Read More