Documentation of September 2018

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I kept my head down generally. Minus a few emotionally enraged post on facebook, I was relatively quiet on social media. I thought a lot about the music. It’s all in the context and of circumstance. What life am I living, who am I hanging around? I’m really not participating in that world; forks in the road. As much as I enjoy writing, honestly, I rarely listen to music or sing anymore. This is the sad truth. Why would I want to produce another song(s). It’s a thousand dollars in the hole. From start to finish, studio time to final mixing. So I ask myself what’s the cost benefit. It’s too expensive just for arts sake. I’m saying don’t hold … Read More

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Time to Think

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I got off work early Friday, grateful. In the last few days, all of my immediate need-to-do and want-to-accomplish have been met. A random question popped in my mind, a ping of curiosity. The first time I sat in meditation at 8 years old, how-WHY did I come to do so? Why the seated position, the deliberate spine structure, why the darkness and focus on breath… I have wondered what propelled me, what instigated the behavior, the influence I was under. Had I read, seen, or heard something? Yes, most probably. But it’s been 4 days, and I have no particular clarity. We are so susceptible at certain moments in our rearing. Consequences we can’t fathom yet feel daily. Maybe … Read More

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On the Docket

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Not even halfway through January, thought i’d sound-in on the personal updates before I loose myself down other rabbit hole blogging topics. What I’m Reading Most of my reading comes by referral. I commented on social media recently how my reads would be on the lighter side this year. This in no way implies just fiction or casual investment of time. I just mean I’m not spending a significant amount of time on one history or biography of 300+ pages, taking up nearly 2 months! In this stack there is culture, history, practical applicable information, spiritualism ‘without the woo-woo’ –Tim Ferris, AND a Murakami. ‘I can’t believe I havent read this one!’ Murakami. Coming from a librarian nerd, don’t you … Read More

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Apology Tour

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I don’t cut people any slack. I’m your worst boss. I’m a hard shell with high standards. Few see me or know me as emotional. But the center is soft. I hover over my every move and analyze my every thought, so why wouldn’t I project this behavior onto you? Who do you think you are?! I don’t cut myself any slack. I have the right to offend. Everything to me is a literal observation. This is why I straddle the line of autism, this is why I find sarcasm NOT FUNNY or sarcastic. I even hate the word! Shoot me before I will watch a late night comedian. I find sarcasm irritating and annoying. I get along better with … Read More

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Peace of Mind

BrockaMood Room, Relationships, TravelsLeave a Comment

Truth: There will always be another path. We are inundated with choices. There will always be someone better looking to date, a ‘better for me’ meal to eat, a cooler place to live or travel. another t.v. show to watch, another book to read, another face product to buy, a nicer car to drive, a guilt regarding how you are spending your time (not calling a friend, not seeing a family member) This existence is inevitable. You have to let this coulda-woulda-shoulda go. Of all things, it is most destructive to your entire life. Mainly, it keeps you from living in the present moment, enjoying the present moment, feeling confident about the decision you made to reach this.present.moment. Yes, the … Read More

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