Thoughts On Others’ Thoughts

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I know I’ve mentioned this before: I am not a big fan of short stories. Never have been. I don’t spend any time on Medium and I have no desire to. This personal proclivity baffles me, because it seems like I would love them the most, as a supposedly anxious impatient person. Tell me, get to the point! Maybe this belief about myself isn’t 100% true. And it also baffles me because I’ve never been able to really articulate why. Only recently have I come to understand that it is more of a time suck to get invested in something which has no longterm benefit; maybe it’s the matured investing entrepreneur in me or just a vulnerable child who doesn’t … Read More

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Strangers in Our Space

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If you don’t follow me on twitter or facebook, you don’t know that my condo has been up for sell for just a week. Therefore, strangers with their agents/realtors have been strolling through and viewing. Firstly, a photographer came in to photograph each room before the listing could go up. Typically their time is booked a 1/2 hour out, just so they can stage the place better before shooting. I knew that wouldn’t be necessary, and it wasn’t. I’m not only a minimalist clean-freak, but the 5 second rule applies to my kitchen floors at least once a week. Nothing had to be moved, other than pulling some electronic cords out of walls. Within 36 hours, boom, back-to-back foot-traffic. I’ve … Read More

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Apology Tour

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I don’t cut people any slack. I’m your worst boss. I’m a hard shell with high standards. Few see me or know me as emotional. But the center is soft. I hover over my every move and analyze my every thought, so why wouldn’t I project this behavior onto you? Who do you think you are?! I don’t cut myself any slack. I have the right to offend. Everything to me is a literal observation. This is why I straddle the line of autism, this is why I find sarcasm NOT FUNNY or sarcastic. I even hate the word! Shoot me before I will watch a late night comedian. I find sarcasm irritating and annoying. I get along better with … Read More

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Any Given Sunday

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I danced hard this morning, then I brunched well. Long conversations. The graciousness of an ex, my humility in accepting the invitation. It was necessary and familiar and reflective and all that. I really wanted to go on a long walk afterwards. The weather has abruptly cooled (in Dallas) and over the last two days of storms, the sprinkles are still intermittent; so I did the next best thing: grocery shop to my few places, park far out in the lot, then walk and think it out, also, intermittently scanning a list. I’m strung out on mirin in my cooking. If you have a sweet-tooth or sweets eating addiction, it will make you LOVE any vegetable ISwearToGod. It’s essentially sweetened … Read More

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Washington, D.C.

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One thing I did on the trip was a lot of thinking. How Do We Know What We Want: Milan Kundera on the Central Ambivalences of Life and Love “We can never know what to want, because, living only one life, we can neither compare it with our previous lives nor perfect it in our lives to come… We live everything as it comes, without warning.” (the above highlight is a little excerpt out of the book worth reading) While on this trip, I became hyper-aware of my entire life: some days I wonder what I’m really doing with myself. I’m in the interim between work and not, trying to land more work and write new music, be at the … Read More

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