Washington, D.C.

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One thing I did on the trip was a lot of thinking. How Do We Know What We Want: Milan Kundera on the Central Ambivalences of Life and Love “We can never know what to want, because, living only one life, we can neither compare it with our previous lives nor perfect it in our lives to come… We live everything as it comes, without warning.” (the above highlight is a little excerpt out of the book worth reading) While on this trip, I became hyper-aware of my entire life: some days I wonder what I’m really doing with myself. I’m in the interim between work and not, trying to land more work and write new music, be at the … Read More

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Baking-Business-Experience

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  Reflection for Thowback Thursday The banana bread recipe post instigated a reflection on my previous (auto-correct spelling called it ‘precious’; I refrain from over-analyzing) gluten free, vegan dessert business of 6 years. I did a handful of savory things, but that was just for a handful of my clients. I had the business a year before my first website, entirely through a physical newsletter. By the time of its demise, I’d actualized two websites and worked with vegan and vegetarian caterers in Dallas providing their desserts, whole-selling to a couple stores, and doing how-to demo classes at Whole Foods and Sur la Table in Dallas and a few classes in NYC. I took it fairly far; so many don’t … Read More

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Task

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I have been called out. I am not good at reading directions; I never have been. I rush -I scan – I assume. I do not pace. I do not slow and study. I am not slow and steady. This, I am not.   I didn’t accomplish the task correctly. I’ve rarely been known to do so perfectly. I am humbled that it has been enough -to suffice -to survive -to have gotten this far. I’ve done it my way I feel ahead of this -above it -beyond it I am not. Why am I spending time? -the worst fault of mine.   -To return -to recover -to cover up More costly, more exhausting Stop Be slow, be calm Understand … Read More

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Sleeping With a Man I Didn’t Sleep With

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When I was young and adventurous (in the minimal responsibilities way, not the drug experimentation way) and backpacking Europe was cool, yes i did it. In that gap summer between high school and when I was supposed to go to college -when most people do it, I launched off the French group visit of 10 days in Paris and proceeded to do 30 more on my own. Backpacking may still be cool, i don’t know. I’m too far removed from carrying 30+lbs of my life on my back and calling it ‘fun’. Besides, over the last 10 years the latest way to go about it has been Couchsurfing. Bypass the cheap hostel with one toilet/shower per guest floor, and just … Read More

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