On Permanence

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Piecing some of today together. Having just returned from brunch, I admire how conversations with friends dive deep immediately. We discuss permanence; whether to stay or go.  I’ve always scoffed at permanence. Having to choose a tattoo sounds like punishment. The thought of not being able to change my mind feels suffocating. I’ve even found myself unfollowing people on twitter simply because they make blanket, dogmatic personal statements; as if there can be no deviation; as if generalities don’t exist. We get too locked in. Sometimes we get complacent.   Yet here I am in the city I’ve lived my entire life. We grow up and everything old no longer fits. It becomes too tight and too stifling. So why linger in a … Read More

BrockaOn Permanence

Half & Half

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It’s certainly been a minute since I’ve written here. While I could whittle off a list of excuses, the main theme of my past month was rebellion. For instance, after almost solely planning a party for my company, I decided at the last minute to not attend. And it felt so free walking right past it and out the door. I genuinely didn’t give a damn; which is where I’m at mentally with my job actually. I’ve been stirring up my own bowl of interests to see what rises to the surface, top priority, next job posting or creative pursuit; both pursued simultaneously most likely. I think I finally folded up the ambition to pursue new music making. My heart … Read More

BrockaHalf & Half

I had a dream last night…

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In one scene I was being led through a vacant, all white -from carpet to ceiling, studio apartment. There were high ceilings and nooks built into two walls. Apparently I was looking for a place to move. I found myself wondering if I could insert my rather tall bookshelf into one of the nooks. In each room I pondered if this broad, eight foot high piece of furniture would fit; on which wall it should sit flush against. In another scene I was sitting at a large, oblong, dark wood table in the center of a room with brown wall paneling and squatter ceilings. To the side of this, there was a tall receptionist desk in front of a window, … Read More

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Photo Diary of August’18

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What a sped up month. I have no complaints. Took small steps and general headway on personal goals; work is trying to be more interesting while I’m simultaneously more diligent about my outside-of-the-office pursuits. In and out of town friends came and went; lunches, dinners, cocktails and conversations; long walks afterwards. I let myself really rest some too. And crazy enough, I went on a legit blind date. As in, I didn’t even google the guy, had no idea what he looked like other than the explanation from a broker at the office. This alone feels exceptional since it’s certainly not the swipe this way or that and internet stalking that pervades us. For the record, I’m on no dating … Read More

BrockaPhoto Diary of August’18

Money and Privilege

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Very deceptive. A favorite newsletter of mine comes in the form of The School of Life. I’ve been a fan for years; absolutely prescient for its proponents of emotional intelligence. We currently live amongst heightened tech, A.I., coding, data mining, software writing, social media, internet dating, sex robots, robots, robots, robots, etc… and the future only encourages this life. The irony of course, so many people are currently responding to all stimuli in life with only emotion. In these cases, predominantly, they are intellectually immature (e.g. college protestors with signs and shouts against free speech) Be forewarned of these types. Job interviewers immediately respond via first impressions, the body mechanics, then the emotional intelligence, then business aptitude -whether they know … Read More

BrockaMoney and Privilege