The constant noise and activity of New York City does something to concentrate the mind. I deliberately embarked on the trip to get some clarity. It also served itself up as a compare and contrast case. Maybe live in the city; maybe take the job there; maybe there’s a relationship. A lot of maybes. Pardon the delay in posting. Prior to leaving, I began a first phase of a kitchen remodel. There were also the two weeks preceding the trip, in which I was back and forth with potential employers. I may now be suffering from whiplash: the preparation and anxiousness; the zoom calls and interviews; the editing and the follow ups. All of that buildup and now I’m in waiting … Read More
Choices
I’m behind on writing but certainly not inspiration. Is it procrastination or lack of motivation? What is propelling me now… As I hover over my life, what actions do I see myself taking? It is good to know what one is motivated by: money; attention; notoriety. It is good to know why one procrastinates: laziness; absolute perfection; fear of incompetence. In our current environs, enjoyment of life doesn’t necessarily demand vocal declaration and shared memorializing. Every meal, every outfit, every landscape. Satisfaction is its own reward. In some ways I’m seeking a comfortable stride, in other ways I’m finding new footing. I reflect on my creative endeavors and the next ones I want to pursue. I’m excited and monotone simultaneously. … Read More
Miami, Art Basel 2017
I’ve been slammed all week, crashing by 9:30 pm. Was asleep by 8 last night, no joke! Throwing this review up with much more on my mind honestly. Will rewind this week and speak on other things shortly. Just really loved last weekend’s trip and want to properly acknowledge it. When I leave town, or my context or my usual routine of information absorption, I see how easy it is to be oblivious about the world. How much of the world functions without a general idea of what’s going on. The basics; people being basic. There are so many things we can compartmentalize or flamingo. Head in the sand. I haven’t properly journaled in almost two weeks. If you aren’t journaling, it’s … Read More
How We Are, It Is
Not sure how this will turn out; there is so much I have been thinking about. My recent vacation was nice, nothing more than nice. Its subsequent trick at forcing me to reflect on what I want again, and again, how I spend my time when i’m left to freely wonder and wander…this is where my mind has been. And I’m moving again, again! Excited, genuinely. I can’t possibly get rid of more than I did to get here, and I’m going for more space -as I just need it to breathe. I did confirm I’m best not idle and my desire for hands-y activities, and real work task still stands. It’s all meditative actually. I also don’t necessarily need … Read More
The Reality
I would like to think I read more books than I realistically do. It’s a memory of myself -when I could stock up on books from the library weekly, when I only had the distraction of a few emails and penpals online. I didn’t have a television. I was in my first apartment and this was a lifestyle I thought I knew about myself. A funny thought just struck me. I’m sitting on a stool, typing on a low table. This was exactly how I was set up in my first apartment. I think I actually had my laptop on a wooden bench. I sold my desk when I moved most recently and don’t miss it. I also gave away … Read More