Choices

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I’m behind on writing but certainly not inspiration. Is it procrastination or lack of motivation? What is propelling me now… As I hover over my life, what actions do I see myself taking? It is good to know what one is motivated by: money; attention; notoriety. It is good to know why one procrastinates: laziness; absolute perfection; fear of incompetence. In our current environs, enjoyment of life doesn’t necessarily demand vocal declaration and shared memorializing. Every meal, every outfit, every landscape. Satisfaction is its own reward. In some ways I’m seeking a comfortable stride, in other ways I’m finding new footing. I reflect on my creative endeavors and the next ones I want to pursue. I’m excited and monotone simultaneously. … Read More

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The Catch Up

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On June, the month that was. It had a slow build up with a running pace ending. I celebrated another birthday with a very relaxed staycation mini getaway. I just wanted to be out of my home environment to break up the monotony; enjoy room service; have a pool and gym within a few strides of my legs; have delicious dining within a few more strides. I caught up with people I’ve missed so much. The people in my life after so many years, 10 to 15 to 23…they’re meaning that much more. I recently reconnected with an old girlfriend too. Regardless, I’ve been thinking a lot over the last six months about my female relationships and the women in … Read More

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Collecting Stories

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Things are starting to come out. Truths are being revealed. Off the cuff and without any shame, she says things. Maybe I’m finally listening. I’m really hearing it all now, absolutely noting it down, slowly accumulating. I have this ever growing pile for the tome of a book I’ll one day manifest. One day. We all know that line. The story I tell myself is one day I’ll tell my story.  I’m terribly into setting and place; all conditions perfectly buffed, all mood lighting lit. Planned over spontaneity. But there’s never the right time except the now, and all the perfect moments fall into place as we go. There is never a one day. We have to fill up our … Read More

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Bite the Bullet

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I have a visceral dislike of the cold weather. My limbs lose feeling quickly. It’s known as Raynaud’s disease. I’m physically not cut out for it. Having already planned for and been obligated to, I got out yesterday morning at the beginning of a short ice storm. In the time it took to hop on the tollway and drive downtown to the shortest photo shoot I have ever participated in, my windshield tried to ice over. The dashboard vent only started to help melt it off when I pulled up at the destination. Showing up panicky and anxious, I declared it better go by fast because I didn’t want to to get stuck anywhere other than home! I’m a freakin … Read More

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Winter Words

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I have been writing in this space for nine years. Of course, I’ve only gotten deliberate about judiciously posting in the last three to four. There have been numerous times I’ve gone to post something and recognized the redundancy, felt tired out by my own thoughts. The upside to this observation is at least I’m consistent. The downside depresses me with the feeling that I may be speaking into an ether, or even worse, spitting in the wind. Considering the internet blogging space has only gotten busier and louder, I wonder where I fit in; if I do at all, really. As much as I do have a unique voice, it isn’t particularly remarkable. This is exactly what writing is, finding the right words; sifting through the metaphorical rubble to prose-up a hidden … Read More

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