I have been called out.
I am not good at reading directions; I never have been.
I rush -I scan – I assume.
I do not pace.
I do not slow and study. I am not slow and steady.
This, I am not.
I didn’t accomplish the task correctly. I’ve rarely been known to do so perfectly. I am humbled that it has been enough
-to suffice -to survive -to have gotten this far.
I’ve done it my way
I feel ahead of this -above it -beyond it
I am not.
Why am I spending time? -the worst fault of mine.
-To return -to recover -to cover up
More costly, more exhausting
Be slow, be calm
Understand it. Apply it, efficiently.
So it is, correctly with more time to spare. Paradox.
A longing, a desire, an anxiousness for knowing or assuming I do.
I will stop -I will wait -I will deliberate
I am spared. Catastrophe is spared.
Correctly, there is more time to spare.
Directions direct directly.
All propelled from excitement.
I am sorry I fucked this up.
I am not sorry I used the word fuck.