Documentation of September 2018

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I kept my head down generally. Minus a few emotionally enraged post on facebook, I was relatively quiet on social media. I thought a lot about the music. It’s all in the context and of circumstance. What life am I living, who am I hanging around? I’m really not participating in that world; forks in the road. As much as I enjoy writing, honestly, I rarely listen to music or sing anymore. This is the sad truth. Why would I want to produce another song(s). It’s a thousand dollars in the hole. From start to finish, studio time to final mixing. So I ask myself what’s the cost benefit. It’s too expensive just for arts sake. I’m saying don’t hold … Read More

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Retraction

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This upcoming week is about the ego. Internalizing and reflecting. We are showman and we are questioning what we show. I’ve been on a purge: deleting history, deleting accounts, minimizing my presence…all deliberately. Is this an opportunity to wipe the slate clean and harness a specificity? Even if it is isn’t so deliberate, now is the time. Don’t question it. Deep breaths. Leave or walk away when you need to. Ever since I was little I had a certain anxiety about making decisions. I ran circles around my thoughts like a triathlete. Quickly I learned the benefits of process of elimination. There is so much; there is always so much; especially now. The much is always growing. Leave behind or … Read More

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Time to Think

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I got off work early Friday, grateful. In the last few days, all of my immediate need-to-do and want-to-accomplish have been met. A random question popped in my mind, a ping of curiosity. The first time I sat in meditation at 8 years old, how-WHY did I come to do so? Why the seated position, the deliberate spine structure, why the darkness and focus on breath… I have wondered what propelled me, what instigated the behavior, the influence I was under. Had I read, seen, or heard something? Yes, most probably. But it’s been 4 days, and I have no particular clarity. We are so susceptible at certain moments in our rearing. Consequences we can’t fathom yet feel daily. Maybe … Read More

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Calm in Hysteria

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I’m turning the page. I don’t need to illustrate what is current hysteria or simple swell of emotion. I don’t need to lay label to what I perceive as right or wrong. To each their own. In a group we behave most differently than one on one. We all know this inherently. We are on the precipice of a couple eclipses. They are impactful, whether we like it or not. It’s emotional, it’s heavy, and everyone is under the influence. We live on this same planet; this is irrefutable. As physics determines gravity, we are susceptible to all energy, all matter…and it is all happening so loudly. (I’m not reading your damn astrological sign; get off your disregarding high-horse!) The … Read More

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On the Docket

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Not even halfway through January, thought i’d sound-in on the personal updates before I loose myself down other rabbit hole blogging topics. What I’m Reading Most of my reading comes by referral. I commented on social media recently how my reads would be on the lighter side this year. This in no way implies just fiction or casual investment of time. I just mean I’m not spending a significant amount of time on one history or biography of 300+ pages, taking up nearly 2 months! In this stack there is culture, history, practical applicable information, spiritualism ‘without the woo-woo’ –Tim Ferris, AND a Murakami. ‘I can’t believe I havent read this one!’ Murakami. Coming from a librarian nerd, don’t you … Read More

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