Holding On & Letting Go

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“You also have to become comfortable with embarrassment. If you’re not willing to screw up in public, you’re best off being a worker bee. You need a thick skin to make it.”  -Bob Lefsetz Boy did I…take a break. The only time I came here was to do some housecleaning once and prompted site updates. I deleted 78 of the 86 drafts I had hanging. Necessary to wipe the slate clean; that spring vibe. I considered If I hadn’t put it out, it either made little sense in the meandering thought, was a topic of redundancy, was a contribution to more useless noise, or something I just really wasn’t willing to share yet. I’ve been holding onto some resentment regarding … Read More

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Spring Retreat

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When I woke Wednesday morning and realized I’d completely, utterly forgotten about the Two Question Tuesday posting, I asked myself why’d I’d added more on my plate in the first place. I’m going to take a break from this space for at least the next 3 weeks.

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Stall for Success

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If you’ve read my words long enough, you know how much I love spontaneity. These decisions tend to be the ones which really create our life. But we live in a world of abundance and options, so our instincts become derailed by distractions. I have stood firm on what I want, and I have also needed daily reminders from the inner voice to be patient. I do not need to be spontaneous. I have time. If I haven’t felt an immediate YES and GO, I just dilly dallied and never shot the bullet or filled in the paper work; or procrastinated the decision long enough till it rescinded itself or was taken away as an option. The common colloquialism is … Read More

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An Authority

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When I used to think myself an authority I see this picture of a woman in leggings and a sports bra in the headstand pose and I admire it. I try to do my headstands weekly, but it’s fallen out of habit (not favor). I am attracted to this image, the lifestyle it represents, a familiarity I know from having once thrown myself fully into it. I lived it and breathed it and spoke knowledgeably on; and people always asked me questions or for my advice. I exuded someone who might have an answer. I spoke publicly on many occasions. The picture is really an other, and it currently feels distant. An old me, to be honest. I wonder when … Read More

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Two Questions III

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Yes I skipped last week. I was busy clarifying not asking. One thing I always often ponder when traveling: Why don’t people uproot and move their lives more often? The main reason we move is for a job or for a significant other’s job. The other reason is love. Maybe we love a city so much, we’d rather live there and figure some of the logistics later, e.g. American expats in Paris or Berlin, a southerner taking their liberal beating heart to Seattle or Portland, Oregon. Of course we can move for the love of another, but this is still predicated on who has the more locked down, financially lucrative job. For this flight of fancy, let’s assume money is … Read More

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