Recording Existence

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I’ve been journaling since I was 12. I do vaguely recall a gift years prior of a proper ‘diary’ : dark leather, gold embossed, with a lock and tiny accompanying key. When I was gifted it, I was too young: to stay with one thought, to have a worthy secret, to have anything genuinely interesting to say. Is it hormones that first lend to privacy? Probably, yes. We are the only animals which can stay attached to a memory. But why do we choose to keep them? Some of us hoard every ticket stub and momento, awards, certificates, cards…then there are those that live out of a backpack. We now have the capability to store our DNA, our daily workouts, … Read More

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Matches Memory

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I don’t even smoke cigarettes, but I get ridiculously stingy-giddy when I enter a restaurant and the host desk displays a bowl of matches, boxed wooden ones being the ultimate to covet. The sharp snap and the warming smell of burning wood tinged with the love-or-hate delight from sulfur fumes. I’m a lover, always have been. The strike of a match or a burning wood fire always stirs a memory of some kind for everyone, every.one. That’s what smells do, illicit times and places. Matches are tiny tangibles that linger longer than the scent. They are labelled reminders of places we were, people we were with, or even other countries we visited. Haven’t you written on one the date, or … Read More

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Jack and John

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Last night I came across an article that not only irritated me for its obvious clickbait ridiculousness, but just for its general ridiculousness of inquiry. Who is the type of person to seek out writing the journalism piece Fewer Women Run Big Companies Than Men Named John ? None other than the liberal bastion of dying hope known as The New York Times. Seeing as how i’ve just put together this blogpost in less than 30 minutes, maybe the author could’ve just as easily investigated the long history and commonality of the name John first? I thought I’d tackle two. Both highly innocuous and pretty powerful.  Is it because they are one syllable and easy to remember, that they’ve stood … Read More

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Fashion Trashin

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It is fantastic that some girls-women have enough money to buy anything they desire and play dress up – ‘pretend model’, for posting on their social media sites, and thus encouraging other girls to go purchase the same brand name labels, for the subconscious sake of acceptance/conformity. Proven by the link liketoknow.it Even if not on social media, every woman has once stood in front of a closet full of clothes exasperated, ‘I have nothing to wear!’ WOW, what a string of thought, but this really is the sequence of events and psychology behind it. Commercialism and group-think, these are the bare-bone terms. (pun) I fall back on this Zen thought often: Would you want it if you didn’t know … Read More

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To Leave it Be?

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Good is not great. And even if one is great at something doesn’t mean it has to be pursued as a career. Not every homemaker has a pie business. And even if one is really great at something doesn’t mean success is inevitable either. There is too much competition, too much noise; more often than not, someone else willing to work a little harder at it, and want it a little more, truth be told. This is now the real formula to success. When I was younger and considering what it was I wanted to do with my life, I perceived every personal interest as an opportunity to make money. I was outsourcing a service. Because I was really good … Read More

BrockaTo Leave it Be?