Time Loop

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‘Oh Hi’ existing blog, sorely neglected because all the thoughts stay lodged in my brain, either over-thought or neglected after a whimsy of interest; verses each tended to, uncovered, investigated…as if *steps* are needed before I can actually just sit down and write it. So many whims and flutters of interest, intrigue, insight. To sit and disclose one thought means I must pontificate on the subject whole-heartedly, as if it needed googling and thorough research. Do we come into any day-to-day conversations needing prior research? As if that is what our cell phones sitting on restaurant dining tables insinuates. And if only this were the case…Oh if people were so intelligent they would have less to say. Let us all … Read More

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Perception Misconception

BrockaArt, Fashion, Health & Wellness, Mood Room, MusicLeave a Comment

The glass of wine I’m enjoying taste more vinegary the second day. It is cheap enough to pour out; or better yet, just share it with someone and finish it the first day. So this is where I’m coming from. I didn’t even look at the date of my last post before anxiously sitting down to do it, not over-thinking I need a specific subject, topic, goal, or agenda. It always comes to me when I just do it. Nike’s quote is Buddhism in disguise. It has taken me a long time to learn timing is everything; beautiful paradox. Why do i feel like a slacker for not blogging? What’s so great about sharing so much? When I post a … Read More

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Task

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I have been called out. I am not good at reading directions; I never have been. I rush -I scan – I assume. I do not pace. I do not slow and study. I am not slow and steady. This, I am not.   I didn’t accomplish the task correctly. I’ve rarely been known to do so perfectly. I am humbled that it has been enough -to suffice -to survive -to have gotten this far. I’ve done it my way I feel ahead of this -above it -beyond it I am not. Why am I spending time? -the worst fault of mine.   -To return -to recover -to cover up More costly, more exhausting Stop Be slow, be calm Understand … Read More

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I’m Not In Love With My Life

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Social media causes angst. I want so much; and then I find myself looking in every drawer, closet, nook and cranny to eliminate, give away, and strip to bare minimum. I hate stuff. I want to give it all away, minus my wardrobe and my books. The books are my library. They tell me stories. And when you read the titles, they give you insight into where my mind has been and who i am. And as much as i don’t say, they speak for me. My clothes are my presentation to the world. They are my mood and how I’m feeling today. Who do I want to present, who do I want you to think I am? I hate … Read More

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Camden House

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[One of my places. One of my very short stories.] This is the tiny grey home, with its crooked concrete steps and gravel driveway. At the end of the street, we are the dead-end straddling the railroad tracks.                                                                                                                                                                     … Read More

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