Thoughts On Others’ Thoughts

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I know I’ve mentioned this before: I am not a big fan of short stories. Never have been. I don’t spend any time on Medium and I have no desire to. This personal proclivity baffles me, because it seems like I would love them the most, as a supposedly anxious impatient person. Tell me, get to the point! Maybe this belief about myself isn’t 100% true. And it also baffles me because I’ve never been able to really articulate why. Only recently have I come to understand that it is more of a time suck to get invested in something which has no longterm benefit; maybe it’s the matured investing entrepreneur in me or just a vulnerable child who doesn’t … Read More

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Podcasts, Part II

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If you are just joining me on this topic or personally getting into podcasts, here’s my first post on their surge in popularity, plus the ones I was then listening to. A few are repeated in this list; a few I dropped quickly. The intimate conversation. The implication of direct connection. I’ve become so accustomed to the sound of their voices. I will genuinely miss a few when they cease recording. One of the main reasons I find tv loathsome are commercials. Therefore, I also exhaust the fast forward button on my phone during most bumper music and all advertisements. I’ve come to know exactly when and where they fall. I say this as a preface and tip. While I enjoy … Read More

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Hiatus

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‘I’m here for 15 minutes or I would’ve cancelled altogether, sorry to rush.’ I said this a couple days ago. And it perfectly sums up a worse part of my personality. Take it or leave it, one extreme or the other. And I’ve just not wanted to write here. I’ve wanted to be in my own space, minding my own business, participating minimally. Taking in so much gets overwhelming; the digestion takes all the energy. It’s my own fault. What is the purpose of this knowing? How does it serve me, or how will I use it? I Want To Tell You All The Things. Every day I want to post here. I wonder, what is the purpose of sharing this, am I … Read More

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4/20

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This date is synonymous with marijuana usage. I have found that the usage also personifies complacency. Frankly, it makes one give less of a fuck. This is good and bad. Some people really need to freakin relax, like war veterans (research Maps.org) BUT some people need to give more shits about the direction their life is (not) going and get off the damn couch. Stop smoking bud.  I smoked A LOT of pot in high school. Me and a girlfriend could get through an entire 1/2 ounce in a weekend. That’s quite a bit if you don’t know. I would take a bong hit before school, during lunch when i drove off campus, and then again after school before a … Read More

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Hindsight

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I remember the phone calls between a close girlfriend and myself succeeding her fiancé canceling the wedding: the understandable and necessary sadness and pain. The only relief I could offer was the fact that it would one day be a memory; plus the overused cliché, ‘everything happens for a reason’. “You will be glad one day this wedding didn’t happen.” Of course she is now! But does it really? Does everything happen for a reason? Is it pressure we like to take off ourselves? Maybe both. If you’re a glass half full person, then yes: it is all about perspective. But if you’re a glass half empty person, one thing may temporarily derail your entire life plan. [doesn’t just reading … Read More

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