Doubt

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I’m still in a watching and waiting mode. It’s mainly a time management thing. The wants butt up against the responsibilities right now. And aside from work, my personal responsibilities are heavy. I feel so un-participatory in many factions of my life. Some days it’s a struggle to even be on social media. I don’t want my year-end to close with celebratory gifts and endless List of (ANY) thing to do-read-buy, etc… Tis the season for listicals… And this will be the first year in many I (am) will ignore any list of books to read. Most are shit anyway. Tapping into the library database means I can freely (literally and figuratively) stop and start as much as I want. … Read More

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The Particulars

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I’ve started and stopped this post a few times now. I wonder why a topic needs to be preplanned. What’s the subject, what will I write about?? I always review the ridiculously long drafts folder like any one will be the one, like ‘Done! That was easy!’ -but no, it’s not what I want to say now. I think about meeting a friend for a coffee/tea-cocktail-meal and how in this circumstance, we don’t come into the setting with a bullet point plan of what will be discussed. There is no agenda. You just show up. What we really want to do is show up. It’s not about having a plan and needing to know every detail and step to take … Read More

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I Just Can’t

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Everything online is so annoying to me. It’s provocative and petty. I don’t even know what the point of my Twitter account is anymore and it has way more credit than having a Facebook account. I only got on Facebook to have a music page, but now I rarely even listen to music and vaguely recognize a singing self in me. I do not sing everyday like I once did. I do drink a glass of wine every evening so I’m certain my vocals are less smooth, less clean. I would have to dry out for a few days before I even showed my face in a studio, absolutely. Every time I open Facebook I wonder why I did. Every … Read More

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Post Election

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Of course I couldn’t write up a food post this past Thursday like I said I would, after the ‘week that was’. Monday I went to work with a new set of contacts in my eyes, but each in the wrong eye! The world was fuzzy all day. Nice metaphor. Tuesday I deliberately went to bed at my scheduled bedtime, not a moment later – as I knew the U.S. presidential results wouldn’t be in till the next day. And I will frankly, honestly say: I woke Wednesday exalted and excited. I didn’t vote for either Hillary or Trump. I was initially relieved Hillary wasn’t our new commander in chief. I was just resolved to living with a Trump administration. … Read More

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Le Changement d’Heure

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First attempt has already boiled over. I’ve cooled off and cleaned up the mess. Onto round 2. Cooking. Regarding the title, time change. In the dark now. I shouldn’t be rushing. I’ve just had a massage during a Sunday rainstorm; what’s more perfect? But I’m anxious, always thinking ahead. It serves me well and hinders me, equally. I wanted today’s post to be honest about my culinary fascination and experimentation -to admit how much I disdain the word foodie, the overly staged ubiquitous food pic on instagram, yet how I equally play, experiment, serve what I’ve performed in the kitchen. If you know me, it is my history. This post is only the commitment to Sunday posting. And now exemplifying … Read More

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