The Random Show.

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A number of the more popular podcast interviewers I listen to do a little answer session of submitted questions occasionally. A few others just read and answer daily mail during the week. I’ve decided to just throw things out there for this one. Much stirring currently. I sang all day today. Hallelujah to that! I visited with a friend I haven’t seen in 3 months. He’s been in Los Angeles gutting-restoring-furnishing a place he bought. His Dallas home is behind a church, and after years of negotiation, the church bought the block, so they could expand. We’ve known each other 10 years and this feels like one of those life shifts But oh how life is very cyclical, how small the … Read More

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Fresh

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Every time I think or say the word fresh, I think ‘fresh to death’ Terrible. What is wrong with me [no punctuation] This last time my computer crashed I lost all my voice memos from my iphone, thus icloud upload on the Mac. These were the 50+ song ideas I hadn’t actualized just yet. It wasn’t like losing sentimental things in a fire; I know that experience. I wasn’t so devastated. I thought it a fresh start. I’m not so obtuse as to believe that every rhyme I sing or melody I want to turn into song is something immediately great. Is anything for a perfectionist ever ready…Most everything is shit. Most rough drafts are shit. ‘Good riddance’ I thought. … Read More

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Discipline

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I’ve started singing again. I want to make note of this. It’s been awhile. There has been a terribly long dry spell. I would like to blame it on my podcasts listening verses music listening. I’ve entirely changed my environment. My current environment doesn’t seem to breed it.  A lot has changed in the past year. I neither hear myself in sounds of soliloquy casually around my home, nor in the shower, nor freely belting in the car; and I have definitely not creatively puzzled together lyrics for a new song. I’ve wondered if the whole singing thing blew in like a breeze and left as quickly as shutting the window pane. {typing this line kinda breaks my heart, so … Read More

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7/16/17

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I like how this day looks. Its bit of symmetry. A palindrome. The addition and subtraction. I woke today with a mega to-do list, one of which was meeting a friend I haven’t seen in ages for coffee; of course I canceled. This is my modus operandi. Long ago I believed he had written me off, but lo… One of my personally subscribed task was baking for the office. Tomorrow is my one year anniversaire! I remember telling the owner-boss during the interview, I will firmly commit to two years. Halfway through the interview, the second-yet-equal broker came into the conference room to introduce himself and assess, and all he could ask me about was all of my travel; thus leading … Read More

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Intimacy

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Why do you have to cry? He asked me every time it happened. It is the extreme version of an emotion. Overpowering. A cut is one thing, a death another. After hearing of the death of a loved one, most have an involuntary reaction to cry. Crying may simply be a result of having held onto a feeling so long, it finally boiled over. A feeling so strong, it beat down the walls we held up against it. I never cry. My mother is so freakin sensitive she cries during emotional commercials, gift giveaways on talk shows, the least character driven of shows, animals dying she has no association with… this list goes on. I would verbally disdain this a … Read More

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