Half & Half

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It’s certainly been a minute since I’ve written here. While I could whittle off a list of excuses, the main theme of my past month was rebellion. For instance, after almost solely planning a party for my company, I decided at the last minute to not attend. And it felt so free walking right past it and out the door. I genuinely didn’t give a damn; which is where I’m at mentally with my job actually. I’ve been stirring up my own bowl of interests to see what rises to the surface, top priority, next job posting or creative pursuit; both pursued simultaneously most likely. I think I finally folded up the ambition to pursue new music making. My heart … Read More

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I had a dream last night…

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In one scene I was being led through a vacant, all white -from carpet to ceiling, studio apartment. There were high ceilings and nooks built into two walls. Apparently I was looking for a place to move. I found myself wondering if I could insert my rather tall bookshelf into one of the nooks. In each room I pondered if this broad, eight foot high piece of furniture would fit; on which wall it should sit flush against. In another scene I was sitting at a large, oblong, dark wood table in the center of a room with brown wall paneling and squatter ceilings. To the side of this, there was a tall receptionist desk in front of a window, … Read More

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Photo Diary of August’18

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What a sped up month. I have no complaints. Took small steps and general headway on personal goals; work is trying to be more interesting while I’m simultaneously more diligent about my outside-of-the-office pursuits. In and out of town friends came and went; lunches, dinners, cocktails and conversations; long walks afterwards. I let myself really rest some too. And crazy enough, I went on a legit blind date. As in, I didn’t even google the guy, had no idea what he looked like other than the explanation from a broker at the office. This alone feels exceptional since it’s certainly not the swipe this way or that and internet stalking that pervades us. For the record, I’m on no dating … Read More

BrockaPhoto Diary of August’18

Uncomfortable Onus

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There’s a lot of it going around. -where we feel duty bound or responsible, the weight of it feels heavy. I’ve come to understand much of it is self-imposed. It sounds harsh to know no one owes you a damn thing until the reciprocal is also understood you don’t owe anyone a thing either. Very few people need explanations, very few family members need excuses, very few friends need a reason… We are there because we want to be, here for each other. We want to do things and give because we want to, not because it is asked or expected. Of course there are obligations, but a lot of these we’ve chosen for ourselves too. Assigned ourselves the tasks. I … Read More

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Money and Privilege

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Very deceptive. A favorite newsletter of mine comes in the form of The School of Life. I’ve been a fan for years; absolutely prescient for its proponents of emotional intelligence. We currently live amongst heightened tech, A.I., coding, data mining, software writing, social media, internet dating, sex robots, robots, robots, robots, etc… and the future only encourages this life. The irony of course, so many people are currently responding to all stimuli in life with only emotion. In these cases, predominantly, they are intellectually immature (e.g. college protestors with signs and shouts against free speech) Be forewarned of these types. Job interviewers immediately respond via first impressions, the body mechanics, then the emotional intelligence, then business aptitude -whether they know … Read More

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