Just Jump

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This past Sunday was ideal. Given an extra hour in the falling back, I tried to sleep but mainly stirred. I did things which weren’t even on a mental to-do list though. With the extra hour, it seemed as if time slowed. I am ever so grateful when it does… I keep various logs on projects, separate categorized to-do list, scribblings of ideas for a future-perfect self, a healthy journal habit, and middle-of-the-night notes from my dream state. Despite any visual proof on paper or constant reminders, our subconscious keeps a tally of the draws, desires. We know what needs to be done. It is not necessary to keep beating ourselves over the head with it, like mental nagging, pressing … Read More

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How We Are, It Is

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Not sure how this will turn out; there is so much I have been thinking about. My recent vacation was nice, nothing more than nice. Its subsequent trick at forcing me to reflect on what I want again, and again, how I spend my time when i’m left to freely wonder and wander…this is where my mind has been. And I’m moving again, again! Excited, genuinely. I can’t possibly get rid of more than I did to get here, and I’m going for more space -as I just need it to breathe. I did confirm I’m best not idle and my desire for hands-y activities, and real work task still stands. It’s all meditative actually. I also don’t necessarily need … Read More

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There Are No Rules

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So much world, so little time. So much adulting, so little playing. It sounds clich√© to say there are big changes coming. On a global level, in how we see this world and how we live in it, it seems as though it’s changing more quickly than can be digested. I am certain our personal lives are taking a bit of a shaking up, too. All for the better. There is no turning back. It is a fact, success is predicated on the pursuit; the damned determination. This doggedness sees an objective through despite external circumstances. Staying the course in a linear fashion has never been my strongest suit. Where some see my behavior as a fluttering about, I recognize … Read More

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I’m still in a watching and waiting mode. It’s mainly a time management thing. The wants butt up against the responsibilities right now. And aside from work, my personal responsibilities are heavy. I feel so un-participatory in many factions of my life. Some days it’s a struggle to even be on social media. I don’t want my year-end to close with celebratory gifts and endless List of (ANY) thing to do-read-buy, etc… Tis the season for listicals… And this will be the first year in many I (am) will ignore any list of books to read. Most are shit anyway. Tapping into the library database means I can freely (literally and figuratively) stop and start as much as I want. … Read More


The Particulars

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I’ve started and stopped this post a few times now. I wonder why a topic needs to be preplanned. What’s the subject, what will I write about?? I always review the ridiculously long drafts folder like any one will be the one, like ‘Done! That was easy!’ -but no, it’s not what I want to say now. I think about meeting a friend for a coffee/tea-cocktail-meal and how in this circumstance, we don’t come into the setting with a bullet point plan of what will be discussed. There is no agenda. You just show up. What we really want to do is show up. It’s not about having a plan and needing to know every detail and step to take … Read More

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