This Here Now

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When I try to propel myself to participate in social media, I just think NO. Why? Some things I want to say have already been said. Literally today, i read a Hemingway quote compressing an entire post I wrote, and I felt validated about redundancy. I.just.can’t. And yet, I’m physically engaged. My dreams are so intense and real and tangible and intuitive. My conversations explain, answer questions, intrigue, deliberate, and help heal -hopefully. Everything else is noise. The external behaves matter-of-factly, thus is closed to listening or negotiation. And so, I can only be in my watching and waiting mode. Still. I want to believe I’m building up a new momentum, but I don’t want anyone reading this to anticipate. … Read More

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The Buzz

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I have wanted to retaliate all week. Throw out an argument to an argument. Kept mum instead -worth it. Listening and silence, still in the waiting and watching mode. I don’t have the words or the prose, because there is so much noise currently; who would hear, who would care? And I don’t want to write just to be on defense. To be human is to have pain and to solve problems, yet this doesn’t mean I need to picket every pain and investigate every problem. I take things in stride. I am focusing on my immediate here and now. And I will not shout in a crowd of screamers. I will not participate. We feel what we feel and … Read More

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I Just Can’t

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Everything online is so annoying to me. It’s provocative and petty. I don’t even know what the point of my Twitter account is anymore and it has way more credit than having a Facebook account. I only got on Facebook to have a music page, but now I rarely even listen to music and vaguely recognize a singing self in me. I do not sing everyday like I once did. I do drink a glass of wine every evening so I’m certain my vocals are less smooth, less clean. I would have to dry out for a few days before I even showed my face in a studio, absolutely. Every time I open Facebook I wonder why I did. Every … Read More

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Post Election

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Of course I couldn’t write up a food post this past Thursday like I said I would, after the ‘week that was’. Monday I went to work with a new set of contacts in my eyes, but each in the wrong eye! The world was fuzzy all day. Nice metaphor. Tuesday I deliberately went to bed at my scheduled bedtime, not a moment later – as I knew the U.S. presidential results wouldn’t be in till the next day. And I will frankly, honestly say: I woke Wednesday exalted and excited. I didn’t vote for either Hillary or Trump. I was initially relieved Hillary wasn’t our new commander in chief. I was just resolved to living with a Trump administration. … Read More

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Podcasts, Part II

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If you are just joining me on this topic or personally getting into podcasts, here’s my first post on their surge in popularity, plus the ones I was then listening to. A few are repeated in this list; a few I dropped quickly. The intimate conversation.┬áThe implication of direct connection. I’ve become so accustomed to the sound of their voices. I will genuinely miss a few when they cease recording. One of the main reasons I find tv loathsome are commercials. Therefore, I also exhaust the fast forward button on my phone during most bumper music and all advertisements. I’ve come to know exactly when and where they fall. I say this as a preface and tip. While I enjoy … Read More

BrockaPodcasts, Part II