Furies and Futures

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Firstly: I could cry. I just spent over an hour on this post, to have it not publish and get lost in the ether. I pray this doesn’t come across as some abbreviated version from distress and anger. 🙁 I’m currently trying to write the impossible. Such as why another Sunday evening post delayed. I want to get some things right; or come across as objective as possible. It may be absurd of me to discuss eating behaviors and diets without inevitably pissing someone off. In my defense, we are living in a hypersensitive, easily aggrieved environment. When did we become this way? Why are people so slighted? Because we’ve all been given a voice, in the most unnecessary places … Read More

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Calm in Hysteria

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I’m turning the page. I don’t need to illustrate what is current hysteria or simple swell of emotion. I don’t need to lay label to what I perceive as right or wrong. To each their own. In a group we behave most differently than one on one. We all know this inherently. We are on the precipice of a couple eclipses. They are impactful, whether we like it or not. It’s emotional, it’s heavy, and everyone is under the influence. We live on this same planet; this is irrefutable. As physics determines gravity, we are susceptible to all energy, all matter…and it is all happening so loudly. (I’m not reading your damn astrological sign; get off your disregarding high-horse!) The … Read More

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This Here Now

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When I try to propel myself to participate in social media, I just think NO. Why? Some things I want to say have already been said. Literally today, i read a Hemingway quote compressing an entire post I wrote, and I felt validated about redundancy. I.just.can’t. And yet, I’m physically engaged. My dreams are so intense and real and tangible and intuitive. My conversations explain, answer questions, intrigue, deliberate, and help heal -hopefully. Everything else is noise. The external behaves matter-of-factly, thus is closed to listening or negotiation. And so, I can only be in my watching and waiting mode. Still. I want to believe I’m building up a new momentum, but I don’t want anyone reading this to anticipate. … Read More

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I Just Can’t

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Everything online is so annoying to me. It’s provocative and petty. I don’t even know what the point of my Twitter account is anymore and it has way more credit than having a Facebook account. I only got on Facebook to have a music page, but now I rarely even listen to music and vaguely recognize a singing self in me. I do not sing everyday like I once did. I do drink a glass of wine every evening so I’m certain my vocals are less smooth, less clean. I would have to dry out for a few days before I even showed my face in a studio, absolutely. Every time I open Facebook I wonder why I did. Every … Read More

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Post Election

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Of course I couldn’t write up a food post this past Thursday like I said I would, after the ‘week that was’. Monday I went to work with a new set of contacts in my eyes, but each in the wrong eye! The world was fuzzy all day. Nice metaphor. Tuesday I deliberately went to bed at my scheduled bedtime, not a moment later – as I knew the U.S. presidential results wouldn’t be in till the next day. And I will frankly, honestly say: I woke Wednesday exalted and excited. I didn’t vote for either Hillary or Trump. I was initially relieved Hillary wasn’t our new commander in chief. I was just resolved to living with a Trump administration. … Read More

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