Photo Diary of August’18

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What a sped up month. I have no complaints. Took small steps and general headway on personal goals; work is trying to be more interesting while I’m simultaneously more diligent about my outside-of-the-office pursuits. In and out of town friends came and went; lunches, dinners, cocktails and conversations; long walks afterwards. I let myself really rest some too. And crazy enough, I went on a legit blind date. As in, I didn’t even google the guy, had no idea what he looked like other than the explanation from a broker at the office. This alone feels exceptional since it’s certainly not the swipe this way or that and internet stalking that pervades us. For the record, I’m on no dating … Read More

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Documentation of May 2018

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The heat, the hustle, the routine, the general quiet. No complaints, just an observation. I have been relatively slammed. I had thought I’d merry the month of May with June as for book documentation, because I only happened to enjoy two authors during the entire month. Not two books, but two authors. There was certainly more to the month in the guise of general pop culture; there’s merit in distinguishing it. Can I just say, I’m not a big television watcher or movie goer at all. The last movie I went to was Darkest Hour about Churchill; and it was the first I’d seen in over a year. I feel the same sentiment about website subscriptions. As much as I … Read More

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Idea and Ideal

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I don’t know what the problem is. My aunt is a previous engineer for MCI, once managerial over 10 men; also an Army veteran. Yet she still gives away a trivial misuse of the words idea and ideal. She rarely squares them up. I’m piggybacking on having mentioned her in my previous post, Kaleidoscopes. She is a rich character and will inevitably be due her worthy time and lengthy place in my writing. I find it funny how the littlest things trip us up. It is curious what we retain, how we remember and learn so differently.  People who sound off random literary lines or quotes in Latin always amaze me. As a number of industries crumble under the weight of flaws exposed, it should be noted that this is a fault … Read More

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Ode to Sleep

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From where I sit: I’ve slept ~6 hours in the last two nights, each. This.is.no.bueno.for.me. Zombie-esque. 7.5 hours is my minimum. I hate everything otherwise! I don’t verbalize it as such, but I think it. I think it so hard. I am concrete being drug through mud. Over the years, under the guise of this fog, I’ve made objective observations. The experience has repeated itself enough, I can somewhat rise above it. There’s always the general anger over the circumstance; the physical ache within my self, my body; the negative thoughts…The real fist punches are the negative thoughts. Now an observer of them, I can classify them as ‘other’, as apart from me and very circumstantial. I’ve learned to overcome … Read More

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The Random Show II

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[Sunday] The first Random Show was in early August. It’s a fine read. A few similarities. I did go back and read it after I formulated this; I needed to see when I had titled another post as such and what numerical value this should be. Since the randomness always runs, how many times have I tried to excuse myself? I’m barely good at boxing myself into this format, something organized and cohesive. Such as why the food-diet-health post is slowly churning along in no cheap, fast fashion way. I want it to be right. I know I can’t avoid offense and hurt feelings or disdain. What we eat is not simply survival-reactionary but personal and emotional, on all the … Read More

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