The Random Show.

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A number of the more popular podcast interviewers I listen to do a little answer session of submitted questions occasionally. A few others just read and answer daily mail during the week. I’ve decided to just throw things out there for this one. Much stirring currently. I sang all day today. Hallelujah to that! I visited with a friend I haven’t seen in 3 months. He’s been in Los Angeles gutting-restoring-furnishing a place he bought. His Dallas home is behind a church, and after years of negotiation, the church bought the block, so they could expand. We’ve known each other 10 years and this feels like one of those life shifts But oh how life is very cyclical, how small the … Read More

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Discipline

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I’ve started singing again. I want to make note of this. It’s been awhile. There has been a terribly long dry spell. I would like to blame it on my podcasts listening verses music listening. I’ve entirely changed my environment. My current environment doesn’t seem to breed it.  A lot has changed in the past year. I neither hear myself in sounds of soliloquy casually around my home, nor in the shower, nor freely belting in the car; and I have definitely not creatively puzzled together lyrics for a new song. I’ve wondered if the whole singing thing blew in like a breeze and left as quickly as shutting the window pane. {typing this line kinda breaks my heart, so … Read More

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Intimacy

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Why do you have to cry? He asked me every time it happened. It is the extreme version of an emotion. Overpowering. A cut is one thing, a death another. After hearing of the death of a loved one, most have an involuntary reaction to cry. Crying may simply be a result of having held onto a feeling so long, it finally boiled over. A feeling so strong, it beat down the walls we held up against it. I never cry. My mother is so freakin sensitive she cries during emotional commercials, gift giveaways on talk shows, the least character driven of shows, animals dying she has no association with… this list goes on. I would verbally disdain this a … Read More

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Time to Think

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I got off work early Friday, grateful. In the last few days, all of my immediate need-to-do and want-to-accomplish have been met. A random question popped in my mind, a ping of curiosity. The first time I sat in meditation at 8 years old, how-WHY did I come to do so? Why the seated position, the deliberate spine structure, why the darkness and focus on breath… I have wondered what propelled me, what instigated the behavior, the influence I was under. Had I read, seen, or heard something? Yes, most probably. But it’s been 4 days, and I have no particular clarity. We are so susceptible at certain moments in our rearing. Consequences we can’t fathom yet feel daily. Maybe … Read More

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Holding On & Letting Go

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“You also have to become comfortable with embarrassment. If you’re not willing to screw up in public, you’re best off being a worker bee. You need a thick skin to make it.”  -Bob Lefsetz Boy did I…take a break. The only time I came here was to do some housecleaning once and prompted site updates. I deleted 78 of the 86 drafts I had hanging. Necessary to wipe the slate clean; that spring vibe. I considered If I hadn’t put it out, it either made little sense in the meandering thought, was a topic of redundancy, was a contribution to more useless noise, or something I just really wasn’t willing to share yet. I’ve been holding onto some resentment regarding … Read More

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