Choices

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I’m behind on writing but certainly not inspiration. Is it procrastination or lack of motivation? What is propelling me now… As I hover over my life, what actions do I see myself taking? It is good to know what one is motivated by: money; attention; notoriety. It is good to know why one procrastinates: laziness; absolute perfection; fear of incompetence. In our current environs, enjoyment of life doesn’t necessarily demand vocal declaration and shared memorializing. Every meal, every outfit, every landscape. Satisfaction is its own reward. In some ways I’m seeking a comfortable stride, in other ways I’m finding new footing. I reflect on my creative endeavors and the next ones I want to pursue. I’m excited and monotone simultaneously. … Read More

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The Catch Up

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On June, the month that was. It had a slow build up with a running pace ending. I celebrated another birthday with a very relaxed staycation mini getaway. I just wanted to be out of my home environment to break up the monotony; enjoy room service; have a pool and gym within a few strides of my legs; have delicious dining within a few more strides. I caught up with people I’ve missed so much. The people in my life after so many years, 10 to 15 to 23…they’re meaning that much more. I recently reconnected with an old girlfriend too. Regardless, I’ve been thinking a lot over the last six months about my female relationships and the women in … Read More

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A Seasonal Briefing

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  When the heat beats and our stride slows to the frequency of the sun’s waves When the blessed of us go from one air conditioning unit to the coolness of another -as we only know the interim, we don’t labor in it We water our plants in the evening after the sun sets, so we aren’t wasting water on a scorched earth. Seasons do change us. I’m creeping up on another birthday and closing in on another work anniversary Both are conspiring and pushing against old ideals for myself; and pardon if I haven’t gotten a grip yet -hence my silence and absence The ego is the enemy. I’m generally trying to not be so hard on myself… a … Read More

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Sundays

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Sundays should invoke ritual, whether one is religious or atheist. I find myself more meditative in my daily task; I find myself hearing scripture out of literature or podcasts; I see myself seeking some sort of downtime regardless. Time is a framework, and we certainly behave accordingly. I often treat Sundays as mock-vacation.  Ask yourself, what do you differently on vacation than at home? Walk, tour, cultural arts, dine well… You don’t need to hop on a plane for this. “Sunday is the golden clasp that binds together the volume of the week.” – H.W. Longfellow I’ve never had a plan or an idea for what I write once a week. I just look at the time and see *now* sit … Read More

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Uncomfortable Onus

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There’s a lot of it going around. -where we feel duty bound or responsible, the weight of it feels heavy. I’ve come to understand much of it is self-imposed. It sounds harsh to know no one owes you a damn thing until the reciprocal is also understood you don’t owe anyone a thing either. Very few people need explanations, very few family members need excuses, very few friends need a reason… We are there because we want to be, here for each other. We want to do things and give because we want to, not because it is asked or expected. Of course there are obligations, but a lot of these we’ve chosen for ourselves too. Assigned ourselves the tasks. I … Read More

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