A Seasonal Briefing

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  When the heat beats and our stride slows to the frequency of the sun’s waves When the blessed of us go from one air conditioning unit to the coolness of another -as we only know the interim, we don’t labor in it We water our plants in the evening after the sun sets, so we aren’t wasting water on a scorched earth. Seasons do change us. I’m creeping up on another birthday and closing in on another work anniversary Both are conspiring and pushing against old ideals for myself; and pardon if I haven’t gotten a grip yet -hence my silence and absence The ego is the enemy. I’m generally trying to not be so hard on myself… a … Read More

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Sundays

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Sundays should invoke ritual, whether one is religious or atheist. I find myself more meditative in my daily task; I find myself hearing scripture out of literature or podcasts; I see myself seeking some sort of downtime regardless. Time is a framework, and we certainly behave accordingly. I often treat Sundays as mock-vacation.  Ask yourself, what do you differently on vacation than at home? Walk, tour, cultural arts, dine well… You don’t need to hop on a plane for this. “Sunday is the golden clasp that binds together the volume of the week.” – H.W. Longfellow I’ve never had a plan or an idea for what I write once a week. I just look at the time and see *now* sit … Read More

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Uncomfortable Onus

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There’s a lot of it going around. -where we feel duty bound or responsible, the weight of it feels heavy. I’ve come to understand much of it is self-imposed. It sounds harsh to know no one owes you a damn thing until the reciprocal is also understood you don’t owe anyone a thing either. Very few people need explanations, very few family members need excuses, very few friends need a reason… We are there because we want to be, here for each other. We want to do things and give because we want to, not because it is asked or expected. Of course there are obligations, but a lot of these we’ve chosen for ourselves too. Assigned ourselves the tasks. I … Read More

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Collecting Stories

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Things are starting to come out. Truths are being revealed. Off the cuff and without any shame, she says things. Maybe I’m finally listening. I’m really hearing it all now, absolutely noting it down, slowly accumulating. I have this ever growing pile for the tome of a book I’ll one day manifest. One day. We all know that line. The story I tell myself is one day I’ll tell my story.  I’m terribly into setting and place; all conditions perfectly buffed, all mood lighting lit. Planned over spontaneity. But there’s never the right time except the now, and all the perfect moments fall into place as we go. There is never a one day. We have to fill up our … Read More

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Bite the Bullet

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I have a visceral dislike of the cold weather. My limbs lose feeling quickly. It’s known as Raynaud’s disease. I’m physically not cut out for it. Having already planned for and been obligated to, I got out yesterday morning at the beginning of a short ice storm. In the time it took to hop on the tollway and drive downtown to the shortest photo shoot I have ever participated in, my windshield tried to ice over. The dashboard vent only started to help melt it off when I pulled up at the destination. Showing up panicky and anxious, I declared it better go by fast because I didn’t want to to get stuck anywhere other than home! I’m a freakin … Read More

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