So Me

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I didn’t get done all the things I wanted to get done today cuz I was too busy doing all the other things on my list. You know how it is. Right after some errands and my very late breakfast, I kinda stood frozen for a moment of ‘which way do I go?’ Anxiety in the dullest sense. I took some materials outside to write, and that proved too hot. So instead I came inside and finally made headway on moving furniture; because lifting heavy objects (dragging a chaise lounge) none of this is obviously heat inducing. With furniture in different rooms, I had to rearrange art. I had to move one of my heavy mirrors I’d actually paid a … Read More

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Bookending Days

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I bookend my days with reading; in the quiet morning and in the closing down of the night. Yesterday was rather curious as it had bookends within itself. I went on a 4 mile walk in the late morning. It was a bit overcast, cool, breezy. I 100% knew rain was coming but wasn’t sure when, so I didn’t let this deter me. About halfway to my turning around point, it started to drizzle a soft mist. It stayed this way and maintained a steady soft pour during my entire trek. I had on a baseball cap which made the experience considerably easier to handle. Just not having rain in your face means basically, you’re only getting wet. I delighted … Read More

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Furies and Futures

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Firstly: I could cry. I just spent over an hour on this post, to have it not publish and get lost in the ether. I pray this doesn’t come across as some abbreviated version from distress and anger. 🙁 I’m currently trying to write the impossible. Such as why another Sunday evening post delayed. I want to get some things right; or come across as objective as possible. It may be absurd of me to discuss eating behaviors and diets without inevitably pissing someone off. In my defense, we are living in a hypersensitive, easily aggrieved environment. When did we become this way? Why are people so slighted? Because we’ve all been given a voice, in the most unnecessary places … Read More

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7/16/17

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I like how this day looks. Its bit of symmetry. A palindrome. The addition and subtraction. I woke today with a mega to-do list, one of which was meeting a friend I haven’t seen in ages for coffee; of course I canceled. This is my modus operandi. Long ago I believed he had written me off, but lo… One of my personally subscribed task was baking for the office. Tomorrow is my one year anniversaire! I remember telling the owner-boss during the interview, I will firmly commit to two years. Halfway through the interview, the second-yet-equal broker came into the conference room to introduce himself and assess, and all he could ask me about was all of my travel; thus leading … Read More

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Stall for Success

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If you’ve read my words long enough, you know how much I love spontaneity. These decisions tend to be the ones which really create our life. But we live in a world of abundance and options, so our instincts become derailed by distractions. I have stood firm on what I want, and I have also needed daily reminders from the inner voice to be patient. I do not need to be spontaneous. I have time. If I haven’t felt an immediate YES and GO, I just dilly dallied and never shot the bullet or filled in the paper work; or procrastinated the decision long enough till it rescinded itself or was taken away as an option. The common colloquialism is … Read More

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